Kalamazoo

I am fucking broken.

This may be the worst decision I have made in my entire life.

I don't need aother temporary fix. I need to stay where I have a support system in place, which includes counseling, and get to healing. I was making so much progress, and I have set that shit on fire. I am as depressed as I have ever been, as suicidal as I have ever been, and I want to come home. Do you realize what a failure that makes me feel like?

What the hell was I thinking? I am now lonely here, I have no counseling here, my support system is two people and not enough, as hard as they try to be and want to help, I need to know at 3:15 Kristin is going to be home. I was getting better in Buffalo. That's worth everything.

I am homeless. I can't move back because I have no place to go and no income. I am ready to find a BryLin in K'Zoo and set up shop.